This Is A Very Huge Weekend For Us!

Y’all, it is a large weekend. I’m doing one thing that I haven’t completed in effectively over a decade, and I’m type of nervous about it. I’m going away for an in a single day journey.

I do know a few of you’re pondering, “That’s large? Actually, Kristi?”

However it’s. It’s enormous. As y’all know, Matt (if you happen to’re new round right here, Matt is my husband) has M.S., and it has progressed to the purpose that I’ve to do most every thing for him. So I spend my days caring for him and dealing on home tasks. And there are issues I’ve to do for him all all through the day, from the second we get up within the morning till I get into mattress to fall asleep at 12:30am every evening.

So the considered really going away and being away from the home in a single day has not appeared potential in a really very long time. The truth is, I haven’t been away from Matt in a single day in effectively over a decade.

The final time I used to be away from him, we nonetheless lived within the condominium. I don’t bear in mind the yr precisely, however I had been invited by Rust-Oleum to go to North Carolina (I believe) with a number of different bloggers for a weekend to check out their new merchandise. I used to be so excited for the chance, and we employed an organization known as Visiting Angels to stick with Matt whereas I used to be gone.

Nicely, it was a catastrophe, and that weekend was one of the worrying issues I’ve ever endured. The corporate despatched a person (as we requested) who as an RN to stick with Matt. We had crammed out all of their paperwork, went by way of all the consumption interview necessities, and had gone over every thing we would want for them to do whereas I used to be gone. A type of necessities was to feed our canine and take him out a minimum of 3 times a day.

All the things appeared positive, and the man confirmed up simply was needing to depart for the airport. However one way or the other, the corporate had failed to inform him about our canine, and this man as deathly afraid of huge canine. So I used to be making an attempt to get out the door to move to the airport whereas the one that was supposed to stick with Matt was freaking out about our canine and saying that there’s no approach he can keep within the condominium with the canine.

I actually don’t bear in mind how that turned out. I’ve blocked it out of my thoughts, I believe. I don’t bear in mind if he labored by way of his concern, or in the event that they despatched another person, or if our canine went to stick with my mother. It was in all probability that final choice. However for sure, I used to be going to items and utterly freaked out, and that set the tone for the entire weekend, not just for me, but in addition for Matt.

I don’t bear in mind a number of particulars. Once more, I believe I blocked them out. However I do bear in mind getting a frantic cellphone name from Matt in some unspecified time in the future. I don’t bear in mind the issue, however being a number of hours away by way of aircraft, in a state a number of states away from Texas, and being on a multi-day journey with non plans to return for an additional two days, I used to be completely frazzled.

After that horrible expertise, I vowed to by no means try this once more. That’s why I by no means went on running a blog journeys, or went to running a blog conferences. Whereas different bloggers had been touring, being invited by corporations to go right here and go there, gathering to community with one another and with corporations, I simply stayed house. I turned down each alternative that got here my approach as a result of the stress of leaving Matt with another person in a single day simply wasn’t value it to me.

So when my church introduced their first annual girls’s retreat a few months in the past, I didn’t even give it a thought. My mind simply routinely guidelines out something that requires me to be gone in a single day. In my thoughts, it simply wasn’t a chance.

However after I gave it some thought, and floated the thought to Matt, we determined to see if we might work out the small print in order that I might go. And at the moment is the day! I can be spending tonight away from Matt for the primary time in effectively over a decade.

I’m nervous, however he appears positive. 😀 And because it’s only one evening, my mother can be staying with Matt. Since most of my time away can be within the night and on a Saturday, Matt will really be fairly low upkeep. She’ll simply should be certain his water cup is crammed, and he or she’ll must make him one meal. And Cooper is fairly low upkeep as effectively.

So it is a large deal. One evening wouldn’t be a giant deal for most individuals, however in our scenario, it’s fairly monumental. I pray every thing goes effectively, and my mother and Matt have a peaceable and stress-free 24 hours collectively. But when not, a minimum of this time I’ll solely be a one-hour drive away.

So right here’s to new issues, and to stepping out of our consolation zone.